I do still exist.

But I am stressed to the max. Since June my grandfather has passed away, my mother found out she has breast cancer, my grandmother moved in with us, my great aunt died in front of my father, my grandmother nearly died and is now in the convalescent home for rehab. Not to mention the average everyday problems in which I have no time to even think about making art. Its busy season at work so I have a gazillion hours a week, and none of those hours are easy this time of year. That has affected my martial arts training drastically because I am no longer able to go on a steady basis. On top of that my master is really pushing me to test this saturday and I am in no way prepared, nor can I figure out for the life of me why she wants me to test so badly. All she said was "trust me"

...so here I am thinking of how I will prepare to test for a high belt in four days, three of which I will be working all day. Worst of all I don't know when my grandmother is coming back home or in what state she will be in

No one even has to read this. I just needed a way to vent before I spontaneously combust